Change the page

 Scared of my future, living in the past. 

Seeking continuity with this ever changing cast.

Continuing this way I know that I will not last.

Missing loved ones that have sadly passed.

Slowing things down for time is moving fast.

Not continuing as I know my own forecast.

If I’m not happy here, it’s time for a contrast.

I’d become inconsistent, was always steadfast.

This is my script, this is my stage. 

I should know it’s about perception by this age. 

Picked away so slow was hard to gauge. 

No longer adolescent, I’ve become a sage.

So I must step forward, be ready for a change.

Remove these chains and step out of this cage.

Release all my anger, self pity and rage. 

For this is my book, it’s time to change the page. 

                                                         -XZanthia

Monster become

But I wasn’t always this way, 

wasn’t always the demon of the day, 

I have loved and failed, 

I believed in the fairytale.  

Back then my view was skewed, 

I wish only that I knew, 

that your love was a bust, 

That you would betray my trust, 

One who’s love can turn to hate 

when they learn they cannot manipulate. 

I don’t know why I waited this long, 

to stand up and be so strong. 

Now I have drawn the line, 

and taking back what is mine. 

You have torn me apart, 

you never deserved my heart. 

That was my gift to you, 

I wanted only the truth. 

But it is a such, 

I suppose that’s asking too much. 

So now I live for the rain, 

and I’ve grown from the pain. 

Once was a stab now only stung, 

you have created this monster I have become.